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(Saturday, May 21, 2005-)
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# maybe it is just because i'm tired.-
i'm stuck at home again. 10 o clock and i'm lonely. Mike is out with his friend. "you could've gone with if you were allowed to." it probably isn't true, but i'll pretend it is.
since nobody reads the blog anymore, i can feel free to write about how i'm trulnds ko sa phil meron na silang kanya-kanyang buhay nila.. and sympre diba.. may mga friends na rin cla na iba dun.. tpos nman friends ko ditoo.. nde rin nman kme mxadong close eh.. tska pano ko mae-explain.. bsta ang hirap! :( minsan naiicp ko na sana nasa phil pa ako ngeon at nde na ko aalis or sna maliit plang ako nandito na ako.. :( haay.. u know what i feel? palagi nalang akong malungkot.. naiingit pag nakikita ko ung ibang mga tao na masayang-masaya sila coz they have their friends right beside them.. andyan pag may problema ka.. andyn pag gs2 mo ng kausp.. o khit lokohan lng.. haay ang hirap nman.. nami-miss ko na kasi ung gnun eh.. it's like u can talk or share about anything to that person.. i feel so empty.. sana may tao ring gnun right beside me.. i really need to talk.. and sana.. nde nlang sa chat.. gs2 ko in person.. or khit sa phone pwd na.. minsan nga gs2 ko nlng mag-isa.. palagi nalang akong nasa denial-stage.. ung parang i still think about things like they're okay.. even though they're not.. hay nako.. no one understands how i feel inside.. lord.. pls heal my heart.. gs2 ko rin ng friend na nandyan talaga para sayo.. nde ung nandyan lng pag gigimik.. grbe.. ang sakit ring matalikuran ng friend noh? well.. i understand nman na they don't have time for me na.. kasi nga diba.. they're living their own lives na rin.. i just really need to move on. pero pano? palagi ko nalang kasing naiicp ang mga bgay bgay.. :( i dont know what to do..
ga bgay bgay.. :( i dont know what to do..
the story ends like this..
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